Worried I was being blind
I used to ignore a lot of signs
Traumatized from the bad times
I hesitated when I saw a chance to call you mine
Worried it was too early
Texting for two weeks only
Forced my hand
I had to change my plans
Wanted to wait till valentines
I wanted to take my time
Had no choice
She created a Hinge
Shot wasn’t clear
Life isn’t fair
Still had to shoot
That was absolute
Waited for her to see who I am
I wanted her to like me for who I was
Forced connections
Could lead to wrong directions
Spent the night sleepless
Thinking about the confession
Given mixed signals
I prepared for the worse
We needed to talk
I needed a test
Were we connecting,
Or was I just dreaming?
Picked her up from work,
I bought her food
This was the moment
Butterflies rise
Nervous out of my mind,
I sat there
Silent
Thinking it was awkward
She started yapping
Inside the car conversing
We sat for hours talking
The moment came again
I prepared her for the worse
Knowing we got five months of school left
Things were bound to get awkward
My eyes couldn’t find hers
But my words came out fine
“Nothing will ever be the same again
I like you
But I’m not going to tell you why”
Moments of silence ensued,
I started to get confused
With nothing else to say,
I told her why
Written all over her face
A smile that couldn’t be erased
Running away
She put me on a chase
She told me she was too shy
But she wanted to be mine
The entire time
